I still can’t believe Ted just showed up like that last night. :( :( I feel kind of stupid for being so trusting… I guess maybe he had an agenda all along. :( :(
But on to happier things!! Like BOWS!!! :) :)
Can’t even sketch :(
I thought very hard about heading to my mom’s house to get some space, but I’m still here. I’m just numb, though.
I… I knew that Rob and Julie had been meeting without my knowing, but he told me all about it when we were clearing the air a few days ago. And he said he’s stop it.
But… then those photos from yesterday, after he promised me I’d know if he saw her again, and then he said she ambushed him… I’m so confused, I don’t know who to believe or what to think… :(
I don’t want to leap to any snap judgements… my friends have been telling me we haven’t seen any really solid proof… But I guess if there’s even one more thing, I’ll just go completely crazy. :( :( So that’s my limit… one more thing.
For now, though… I guess I try to seem normal and maybe be a little kinder to myself.
We get a long weekend!!! It’s the last one before school starts up, and I can’t even guess how crazy everything will get then!! So I guess this is the calm before the storm LOLOL.
I’m walking on rainbows!!!! I really think Rob and me got everything fixed between us last night. As a part of that… we’re keeping private stuff private from now on. We’ve been acting horribly and it’s time to put a stop to that!!!
SOOOO for now let’s get back to FASHION (and other things that really matter!) LOLOL :) :)
Rob and I are kind of… circling around each other and taking some space. Better than arguing, at least. :( :( Sooooo I sketched late into last night to keep my mind off everything!! :) What do you think?
Headache
I have a horrible headache today, probably from all of the crying last night. Rob won’t give me a straight answer about that lipstick, he says he just doesn’t know where it came from and it must have been some kind of ACCIDENT, like maybe someone threw it in the back window while he was just innocently DRIVING ALONG or something :( :( :(
But he also says that he’s choosing to be with me, that he was faced with that decision and it was me <3 <3 and that’s completely true!! So I don’t know if I should just trust him, orrrrrrr if I should… I don’t know, just do something. :( :(
All my friends have been telling me not to worry, even though Rob’s been a cheater before, and I was trying SO MUCH to just have a nice weekend, but then he was in some sort of MOOD and nothing I did was right, and then he went on an outing with the kids without me and I got SO MAD!!!!
Somebody said this morning that we were acting like children. And I thought maybe that was true, and I started to feel really terrible. :( :( But then I found this in the BACK SEAT of the car this morning.
It’s not mine, I would never wear that color. :( :( :(
I’m so ANGRY and so SCARED right now I just have no idea what I should do!!!! What DO you do in this situation?! :( :( I don’t want to be so angry over nothing, but I don’t want to be lied to and taken advantage of either. :( :(
Pictures!
Great party yesterday! :D :D
So much work, though. I don’t know how other people can make hostessing look so easy! Anyway — take a look at some of the photos! :D :D
Another sketch!! :) :) And now I guess I have to go to the store. LOL!!
Worry :( :(
You were all super comforting yesterday! And I love you all for that!! <3 <3 But I had lunch with a friend today, and she was telling me ‘once a cheater, always a cheater.’ :( :(
And I guess I should be honest with you… Rob and I, we have a history. I don’t want to get into details, I don’t think it’s important right now, but just… he hasn’t always been so faithful.
He’s still at work right now, and it’s late, and he promised he was coming home tonight, hasn’t been home much all week, and I just really, really wish there was a way to make sure he was still working and not in some hotel room somewhere. :( :( :(
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